Looking back through my blogs, I have noticed that it is a while since my last rant, which was probably about the riots, the break down of society, probably more critisism of this government, yes does not matter who is in power, they will be corrupted by that power. I am not going to talk about that tonight, I know the Government are a bunch of zips, Mind you looking at the wars in Afghanistan and Lybia, takes me back to the dicks pussy's and arseholes speech from team america. good film might watch after writing this.
No I am dedicating tonights blog to my dad, who sadly passed away last week, this combined with a mini holiday, means that I have not been around. My dad was a kind man, honest man, he served on the local council in Nottingham for many years.
He was a socialist in every sense, who fought peoples corners, tried to make a differance to the City of Nottingham, a city I know he loved. No words can describe the good he did, as well as a all round good man, and public figure, was a family man, who would give time to his four children. I know from my own events of the last few years he was there for me, and in a way provided guidance and helped me long during some real dark personal times.
He was an armchair sportsman and historian, and quite often I would come to find him watching documentaries about the battle of Starlingrad or the cricket. He was an avid follower of formula one
His biggest love after his family was music. He enjoyed a wide variety from blues through to current stuff, Looking at his Ipod reveals a wide variety of songs, and he is indirectly responsible for my wide interest in music, although i'm not so bothered about pre 1977 pop music.
I hope you are reading this dad, where ever you are, and I hope you are proud of me, I hope I can make you proud in the future, what ever I do. I know he will be with us all in spirit, so lets keep that legacy going.
One thing you do learn when you lose someone, is you look at yourself, look at your past mistakes and thing about what we can do in the future, now as far as I am concerned we have one shot at this life. So we can look at our past and regretting things or we can use the past to help us look to the future, make those plans and do our best to see those things through, and yes our circumstances will change, but where there is a will there is a way.
What holds us back, we the simple answer is go and look in the mirror, life might be hard but things will get better, sometimes you have to stick your middle right hand digit in the air and say fuck you life, I am going to do this. Dont put yourself down because there are plenty of bastards out there who are more than happy to do that, and there is no such word as cant. bollocks to cant, you find a way, it might just take you slightly longer to get there, but when you do then you and look satisfied and say I did it, I got there.
I am roughly half my dads age, I know what I want out of life, and ok there are some barriers to some of the things I want out of life, but I am going to find that way, fuck the mass media manipulation, I know what is wrong and right. I have made past mistakes, and I have learned from them too. Now this is something that irriates me. Society in this not so great britain are happy to judge people on past mistakes and not what that person could offer in the future, we are all individuals we are all differant, lets celebrate the fact.
Right I am going now talk soon
TTFN
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