tuesday 15th March 2011

Well it is day 2 of my week of lates, tonight I have a more local job, going to Burton on Trent, last nights journey was quite eventful, as the original coach I was driving had the wndscreen damaged by a piece of metal leaving the trailer it was on and heading on a collison course with the windscreen, luckily nobody was on the vehicle, and we managed to swop vehicles, It just goes to show just how easy it is to be involved in an accident on the motorway.

I picked the people up from Gatwick and I got them back safely, which is the name of the game.  I must admit that I enjoyed the drive, it is nice to be on the road during a long drive, I use it as thinking time, because the radio goes on and I have the open road ahead. 

The roads are very quiet between 10pm and 5am, with the majority of the traffic being lorries doing their deliveries, but there is the danger of the black hole, which is the period between 2am and 5am, this is when concentration lowers as the body wants to sleep.  A long section of motorway does not help, so I will always vary my routes to keep me on my toes and break up the monotony.

I am thinking of my future, not just my career, but life in general, I suppose when you are in your 20's you think that you can take the world on, everything is there for the taking, but along comes 30, and it is a wake up call, I suppose my wake up call has been the events of the last 18 months, I suppose it was my long term goal to become self employed, I was career orientated to the point I neglected alot of my friends, in the pursuit of a dream which was not achieveable.  I was trying to do too much, and started chasing my tail. 

When I turned 30, I was in a relationship, but given the distance we had to travel to see each other, as she was studying in Bath at the time, we grew apart, and the break up is something I will always regret, there are lots of things I regret, and lets just say i have made lots of bad choices over the years.

I must admit, I do question lots of things, such as when I moved to my current employer, I was questioning the move, I still do to be honest, but that can be a good thing, I suppose I should have made the move alot sooner, and I had let the grass grow beneath my feet, but when you feel passionate about a workplace, you do get a little bit too comfortable.

I suppose I am 33, and need to make some decisions sooner before it is too late, and the next thing I know I turn 40, I need to feel secure in alot of ways, but maybe it is also time to take some risks in life, you know say sod it what have I got too lose, turn the kaos of the last couple of years in to something positive.  Now that would be a legacy to build on